Through the Looking Glass

2023/2022 - You were a doozy. So much about this past year has echoed 2021. The energies were similar, and it's hard to explain, but one just has to go back and see my new years post from back then to get a small understanding.

The first half of 2022 I fell into a dark hole. In the deepest abyss I almost gave up. I contemplated suicide more than once as I floated by on a river of despair. I lied to myself and others that I was okay. I wasn't. What stayed my hand were the memories of what someone taught me about myself: That I was worthy of life and love. As I awoke from that fever dream I realized that I have so much more to give myself, to give to the universe. I started to tap into my abilities as a photographer and I found so much life there.

I have changed a lot since then; matured and grown in so many ways. I have become Me.

The reality is that the universe was stripping me of what I once was, so that I could become a better version of myself. I've lost nothing, only gained experiences that aid me in the building of my present self. I have learned to love those dark thoughts and build strength from them. I've learned to love myself, wholly and accept me as broken as I am. I've learned to let go of what doesn't serve me, and instead trust that I have everything I need within myself.

Today I stand looking into the mirror. I give and reflect what I need and want back. Through the Looking Glass I see a life that is fulfilling and full of wonder. Mysteries to unravel and experience to be enjoyed, knowledge to learn.

2024...No...LIFE has so much potential.

Recent events have pulled me away from focusing on my art. That will change and you'll see more of my photography and poetry and prose this year. I look forward to sharing with you what I see through the looking glass.